"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb " Psalm 139:13
I meditated so much on this verse during the first trimester when I was filled with anxiety about losing another baby. God taught me so much about what it means to rest in Him. He whispered peace into my heart.
I cannot think of a more distinct situation where I have wanted so badly to create something perfect and beautiful, but the creative process is out of my hands. I struggle with worry - Is everything going okay in there? But I always come back to resting and knowing His way are higher and more perfect and beautiful than I could ever dream of. I look out at the mountains or catch a glimpse of the sunset, and I smile thinking that the same Creator is making my baby. He is deciding on the eye color, the amount of hair, and the curve of our sweet baby's face. And I trust Him. I know that this baby is going to be God's perfect combination of me and Josh and I can't wait to meet him.